hw i wish i was a fish ...

hw i wish was a fish ....
able to swim far away frm here ...
to sum where new & peace ...
able to start a new life ...
forget the past ...
juz live on wif the future ...
nthin 2 worry ...
no problems ...
so free ...
free of problems ...
sadness ...
hatred ...
anger ...

i reali wish to swim far away frm here ....******

at times ....

at times i feel all alone ...
i feel dat i haf no frenz ...
i felt dat i was on a island all alone ...
cryin ...
feel lost ...
feel dat no1 understand me ...
hw i felt ...
i feel weak ..
juz feel like breakin down ....
no mood ....
no feelings ...
a total blank ...

hope friendship can last 4ever ....

to my frenz(i tink u shud noe who):

i really hate to see my frenz being enermies ....
being angry wif one ...
scared of approachin one ...
dunno hw to end tis problem...

i haf suffered tis before ...
no1 can help u but urself ...
one muz learn hw to give & forgive one another ...
one muz learn to treasure their friendship ...
one muz always trust each oth ...
one muz settle a problem & nt juz leave there unsolve ...
life muz go on ...
things muz b solved ...

_hw i wish i was on dat island nw_

i reali wish dat i m nw on dat island .... i will haf no problems ... i can haf peace ... i reali feel like stayin there 4ever ... the beach so lovely .... hope dat everyday i can walk on dat lovely beach ... n when it is at nite , i will b able to see the lovely stars ... they r juz like smiling at .... haiz .... hw i wish i cud b there nw ... nt like here , i feel sad when seeing my frenz upset n i myself feel so useless ... i reali dunno wad to do to help dem ... i really useless .... haiz .... I HOPE TO B THERE NW ......

.:i m useless:.

i noe dat i m useless ... i tink dat i dun even belong in band ... cuz i so lan ... u are right dat i shud put more effort n practices to improve ... but u dun understand i gt my reasons ... no1 does understand me ... ya , u r right dat i shud nt cry .... I M SO DAM USELESS !!!!

why ....

why ... why .... why do tis things happen to me .... life is so unfair ... why can't everyone be gd to each other ... help each other ... be there for each other ... always generous nt selfish ... always willingly to give a helping hand .... but ppl aren't like tis ... ppl are nw more like tinkin of themselve ... haiz ... i dunno hw to express my feeling .... it's so compilcated ...

feel like running away ....
sumwhere faraway ....
never to be found ...
lost sumwhere on earth ...
to be alone ....
all by myslef ...
no trouble ...
juz peace ....

_sat...sun...mon_

Saturday, 3 Sep 2005
i went to an island name Rawa island today ... i went there for holiday ... i had a roller coster ride on the speed boat due to the rough waves i guess ... but i enjoyed it .... when we reach there , i was being so envy of dat island ... the beach was wonderful , the water was so clear ... i went to pick up sea shells & play wif the water too ... we even feed the fishes .... i was tired dat i slept until night & went to haf my dinner ... it was barbecue dinner ... lots of food , i ate quite alot i guess .... the best ting abt at night is , u will b able to see the sky full of stars ... it's so dam beautiful ... i felt like cryin when the wind is blowng at me , hearing the waves & looking at the stars cuz it makes me tink of sumting ...

Sunday, 4 Sep 2005
the nxt day , i went to haf a morning walk at the beach ... the breeze was lovely ... the island was really gd for sumone to feel relax & peace .... it juz make me feel free .... hw i wish i cud juz bring sum ppl there ... i collected sum more shells ... i sun den up ... i went to feed the fishers ... i was afraid dat they will bite me ... i stay faraway frm dem ... i gt bitten by water bugs lots of time ... it was painful but 4 a short time onli ...

Monday, 5 Sep 2005
today is the day we r goin leave the place ... tis is the sadness part ... i realli couldn't bare to leave dat place ... the place was too nice ... i realli miz it .... i miz everyting dat i experience there ... i realli wish i could stay there longer ... or u might sae 4ever ....


THE END~

so stoopid*

i so stoopid sia 2dai ... at sch during pe , i was playin badminton wif jazreel while berry was watchin us den suddenly volleyball roll to my side ... so i kick lor ... den my shoe come out sia ... den berry , jaz , julia , izzah & kah hwee all laugh at me .. so pai seh sia ....

during chinese lesson , i gt back my chinese test , guess wad even though i nv do much of comphere , i still get 56/100 ... lucky pass .... i scared fail sia ...

sian sia ... english muz do 5 diaries & sum newspaper cutting ... so lazy 2 do sia .... haiz ... lazy bum ... i like pig like dat ....

nw nid 2 pack for tml ... i goin 2 rawan island tml ... 3 days , 2 nights .... haiz... dunno wad 2 bring ... me tml muz wake up at 4 am cuz leaving at 5.15 am ... so early sia ... i sure get black panda eye ... haiz.... hope one day i cud go holiday wif frenz ....

i wun b able 2 UPDATE* my blog on sat , sun & mon cuz me nt singapore .... i will try my best to tell update when i m back ....